Ytd i when to the playground that i have not been there ever since he left..

many things flash back..

all the things tat he have told me..

i told myself tat i would be able to forget him if i go bak to the playground the last time..

but would i be able to really forget HIM!! ??

i always think tat time really can be the healing but somehow it has proven me tat im wrong..

& wrong in many things 2..

maybe i should start being truthful to myself..

stop lying to myself abt e feelings in r/s..

Love recognizes no barriers. It jumps over hurdles, leaps fences, penetrates walls to arrive at its destination full of hope.

Love is like drinking beer... Once you get too much of it, you begin to act stupid.

It's hard when u don't know what caused your sadness, but it's even harder when you know what makes u happy yet you can't do anything to have it

Love not because of who the person is, but because of who you are when you're with her/him.

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes, it is better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.

It's not wrong to give it all for love; it's not wrong to love a person so much. Sometimes, the only thing wrong is the person you chose to love..

Sometimes I wish I were a little kid again. Skinned knees are easier to heal than broken hearts...

LOVE is IN SPITE of , not BECAUSE of.

somehow i find all this to be quite true..

and all this this thing is like happening on me to often..

which i dont thing is a good thing..

i hate all this thing to happen..

y is loving someone so difficult..??

y can loving someone be much more easier..??

loving pet somehow is much better..

this few days i didnt think of him le izzit a good thing or not??

mayb is a good thing.. but wats make me not thinking so much??

found feelings on another person??

dont really wan to noe the reason..

maybe it will just hurt me more again..

somehow i just keep hurting myself more n more each time i think of him..

or something happen.. and somehow it will just link to him..

may i noe where is he??

how is he??

wat is he doing now??

wat is he thinking about..??

WHERE THE HELL ON EARTH IS HE AT??

I JUST WAN TO SEE HIM 1 MORE TIME.. TO FIND OUT THE TRUTH..

I HAVE TOO MANY THINGS THAT I WAN TO ASK HIM..

EVER SINCE HE LEFT.. REALLY REALLY TOO MANY THINGS TO ASK..

V where are u??

y dont u contact me..??

y did u ignore me..??

V can i just see u once more..??

and i really can let go le..

i promise.. i wouldnt hold back le..

i promise... i promise.. i promise...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me!!

today super happy..

i got so many surprise..

1st was yx they all cos i when www in the morning wif them..

they brought me a winnie the pooh pan dan.

so cute lo.. i didnt think that they will but this for me..

2nd is andorria they all..

they buy me the earring that i wanted to buy..

and is BLUE!!! i really like the earring..

i also didnt think that tis year they will give me tis..

tis year bday i really didnt realise i will have this birthday present frm them..

thank you!! everybody who celebrate my birthday wif me and wish me..

only 1 person didnt wish me.. and i think tat person will ever wish me..

anw i going to have my new phone soon..

baby change le lo.. she change her fav color i also change mine fav..

hahahahahaha...

so fan.. too many thinks going on in my live now..

i dont wan all this thing...

i just wan to go back to the start when i was unchange.. unhurt..

not like now.. too many hurt tat i have numb alrdy..

no more tears.. just sorrow.. too numb to feel anything..

wat should i do..?? baby ask me dont think le..

let time be the healing... but i think this wound is too deep to heal up properly..

i hate the healing up.. it hurts more den when it was just cut..

but now both cutting and healing feel are both hurting..

SO FAN!!! y am i like tat.. i keep tell my mummy.. y u give birth to me into this world..

i told many ppl... how i wish i wasnt in this world..

i have regreted too many things..

too many thing to sad over.. too many thing cannot start over le..

everything has become nth.. there is nth left..

its like a volcano just bao fa.. burns everything.. left the ashes..

my heart onli left wif broken pieces that cannot be fix back without leaving scars..

Finally exams are over..

Yipee.. yahoo..

didnt blog tis few days again cos studying for exam..

so many things happen last few days..

suddenly so many things to fan..

suddenly miss him so badly..

suddenly i was told/realise things tat shouldnt be happening..

isnt normal ok..??

whats wrong wif me..??

why this things always happen to me??

i noe is gd but...

it wouldnt work out..

i noe myself..

trying my very best not to sheared a tears becos of him..

but i always end up crying the whole night..

why can a guy tat i nv comtact for so long affect me so much that i've change into another person..

even before my friends tell me that i change i already knew it..

i've change into a very scary person.. is a total of 360º change..

i have been told many time not to let him bother me anymore.. but everytime is getting worst..

the wound is getting bigger & deeper each time..

y doesnt it heal up.. y does it always split up.. is hurting too much..

too much tat everytime i cant take it anymore..

everytime i feel like killing myself..

heyhey!! peepo!!

thrus when out to celebrate xian yong bday..

pei rong, ying xian, andy, decai, jack and hong yuan also when..

morning when for sch den afternoon when out to Kbox at paris ris..

they sing until so high..

den dinner eat just asia..

eatting the time also so high..

eat until i suddenly got a god son and husband..

pei rong is my god son and xian yong become my husband..

den nvm i have even 17 become so old.. GOT GOD SON!! and is older den me..

now i jump into any river also no use already..

den dont noe wat they say make peirong laugh den she spit out the water in her mouth again..

2nd time like tat again.. but this time i nv kana but my bag kana..

super funny la the whole day..

den after eating al go home..

decai and peirong go home tgt..

den xianyong, andy and chinkiat tgt..

me yingxian and jack tgt..

den yingxian bluff xianyong they all we take bus home..

but actually we follow them behind.. den in mrt we surprise them.. haha..

super lame.. but fun..

woke up 12plus cos grandfather scold den 2plus study until 7plus 8..

den study until use com awhile and back to study.. until now going to 1am le.. haix..

den going out again in the afternoon cos my aunt wan me go out 2..

hate exams are like that..

back from not blogging.. somehow lazy to blog everyday..

only like to blog when i feel like it..

today's DMT phase test..

so sian.. so scared dont noe how to do..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIAN YONG!!

ytd when out watch movie with yx, pr, ck & d.

when to watch "my gf is an agent"..

the show super funny.. cant stop laughing la..

after the show go find xy who was waiting for us outside the cinema..

he didnt watch the show wif us that y he's outside waiting..

and while he was waiting for us he was playing wif the escalator..

and ppl thought he was suspicion.. hahahahaha..

den when to eat dinner.. and u noe wat our dinner was dessert..

yx & d shared 2 bowl of dessert 1 hot and another cold..

me and xy shared red bean milk ice..

while eating we were talking a lot crap & funny thing..

den we were talking about something funny..

pr just suddenly burst into laughter wif her mouth fill wif dessert..

kana most of us la.. and cant stop laughing..

it's been long time since this happy thing happen..

very long nv laugh so happy le..

although still have unhappy thing inside me..

dont noe how long am i going to take to forget this thing..

even my teacher also came and talk to me..

cos i didnt study in his/her lesson well..

it was far from the 1st term the way i behave..

xian zai de wo is like..

at the top of a roller coast suddenly drop 180 degree down from the ride..

from heart beating fast to no heart beat..

i shouldnt have contact him..

maybe all this thing wouldnt happen..

maybe if i nv meet him..

this thing wouldnt happen..

but i tell my self in this world there are not many if or maybe..

all this are my fate.. but i didnt wan my fate to be sad..

or maybe is just not the rite time and ppl..

like wat my teacher told me..

it seems so hard to forget..

y is human being made like that..??

y cant human being like computer just reformat and everythings back to normal with a scar..??

why dont i get a chance to show him how much i love him.. but he can.. this isnt fair..

and i noe love isnt fair at all..

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歌手：郭书瑶

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Music~

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所以我选择放弃

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连自己都知道这不公平

放弃你放弃自己

放弃了爱的权利

放弃你等於放弃我自己

Music~

放弃你放弃爱情

放弃了所有权利

连自己都知道这不公平

放弃你放弃自己

放弃了爱的权利

放弃你等於放弃我自己

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