sometime everything happens for a reason..

but sometimes this reason happen to often that it hurts..

repeated reason just makes e wound deeper n deeper..

so deep that it cos a very deep scar..

too obvious to hide it..

doesn't matter if laugher covers it up its still there..

suddenly thinking bak things that have happen this few months..

probably this happen because of me..

becos of my stubbornness..

maybe there is still no one that can take my stubbornness yet..

maybe is really my problem that causes all this unhappy moments..

its always my stubbornness that cause more ppl unhappy..

i always use my stubbornness to change for other ppl unhappiness..

guess u were unhappy with me..

that we are like that..

a lot people ask me am i really able to be who am i now??

will i be able to forget u..??

will i be able to be happy again..??

seriously i don't know all this ans..

maybe from e start i shouldn't have chosen this..

i should have know whats e ending..

yet i still dig my own grave..

n drag down innocent people in..

i should have been stronger to lock everyone OUT!!!

but i didn't..

my heart stop me from doing it..

my heart didn't wan me to lock out everybody..

i should have build it stronger..

i dont feel i'm alive...

felt so dead inside..

not able to feel my heartbeat..

not able to feel what i'm thinking..

DONT KNOW WHO AM I NOW!!!!!!!!!!!