WTF did i do to get treated like this!!!!!!!

WTH is this.. tis is not i wan!!!!!!

u get it!!!!!!!

GET IT INTO YOUR HEAD!!!!!!!!

ALL I WANT IS SIMPLE LIFE!!!!!!

CANT U JUST GIVE ME THAT!!!!!!

WHATS THE MATTER WITH U!!!!!!

DONT REGRET WHEN IM GONE!!

CAUSE THIS IS WAT U MAKE ME TO DECIDE!!!

dont come and show me attitude i tell u!!!!!

i dont give a damn..

i dont care who u r..

once i make me firer up i dont give u any chance!!!!!!

today was the 1st day of work..

feel a bit nervous wondering how r e people there like n how e place look like..

but after i reach e place i wasn't tat curious anymore..

the people there friendly n always have food going around the office..

somehow it does look like a office area..

hahahaha.. don't know how to describe it..

time past very fast today..

quite like the thing tat i was doing although is a bit messy..

but is something new that i learn..

hahahahaha..

well i wasn't happy for e past few days..

not until now.. so i occupied myself with things e whole day..

without thinking anything except food, bed n work..

after thinking what i did wasn't that bad at all..

nth to bother about..

relax..

but after work go n have dinner is totally shit!!!

emotional drop half down..

super !@#$%^&*()@#$%^@#$%!@#$%^&*!!!!!!!!

not going to do anything anymore..

numbing myself..

building metal from now on..

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[ME]

HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!!!

we have gone through many up n down..

hope we will love each other more..

understand each other more..

this love will go on all e way..

i love you hubby..

:DD

how long more can i smile like this?? :DD

smile until i cant close my mouth even 1 min...

can i continue smiling like this all e way..

or will it be taken away??

TOTALLY DISAPPOINTED & NEGLECTED!!!!

wat e hell is tis.. i dont think we can make it longer anymore..

u dont even noe y im like tis..

dont even bother to ask me u im like tis..

wat is tis..

WTF!!!

what ever i say i dont mean it at all..

when i say i was okay, i wasnt alright.. im always worrying about u..

when i say im happy, im actually dying inside..

when i say i wasnt thinking about u anymore, im dying to see u..

when i say i wan to leave u, i wan to keep u most by my side..

when i say i dont care about u anymore, i wan u to care more about me..

when i say i dont wan to know wat u where doing, i wan u to know wat im doing..

bb.. do u know all this??

do u know wat im thinking??

do u know war i really wan??

do u know how am i feeling??

do u know how much tears have i drip??

does people lie really because they really really love them??

does people lie cos they don't the person they love e most to get hurt??

does people lie cos they wan to protect them??

does people lie cos they don't wan them to know e hurtful truth??

does people lie cos there is reason behind it??

does people lie cos they wan to keep a person image perfectly inside them??

does people lie cos they wan them to live happily??

does people lie cos they don't wan to take away the smile from them??

DOES ALL THIS LIES REALLY HELP??

DO THEY REALLY THINK THAT THIS LIES REALLY MAKE THEM HAPPIER??

DO THEY KNOW THAT ONCE THE PERSON KNOW THAT ALL THIS WAS A LIE THE OUTCOME WILL BE THE MOST HURTFUL AND PAINFUL MOMENT..

WHEN THE PERSON KNOW THAT ALL THIS WAS A LIE ,

WHEN THE PERSON COME TO IT'S SENSE,

THE PERSON WILL LOSE ALL THE TRUST THAT ACCUMULATED ALL THE WHILE..

THE PERSON MIGHT JUST NOT BE ABLE TO BELIEVE ANYBODY ANYMORE..

OR EVEN HAVING DIFFICULTIES TRUSTING PEOPLE..