Brand new year 2012!!

It's 2012!! A brand new year!!
It's a new year that I'm with love..
2nd day after new year I left to china for sch trip.. Went about a week.. Will never forget e moments before I left..
Bee called me throughout e time before I get to e gate.. He wanted to come but it was to early n no transport.. So I told him no need to come.. Somehow I manage to connect to wifi n FaceTime .. I was so happy to see him thou it's over e phone.. But I'm still happy.. Thou I wanted to hug him so much.. I was very upset as I hang up e phone.. Teary eyes but control my emotions.. Didn't wan bee to get upset too.. Could he in his eyes he didn't wan to say bye.. Somehow bee always manage to see what I'm thinking sometimes.. Each time I was shock when he knew it.. Or maybe I'm able to know what his thinking.. My cute annoying bf~ ❤

After I reach I went to buy e Internet prepaid card.. Once I got it we what's app e whole time.. More than what we what's app when I'm in sg.. I even tries to FaceTime when I was at e hotel lobby.. I was happy to see him! But after that I was a bit pissed cos his phone was vibrating loudly.. N I said him.. N it was e day before I fly bak.. He said he would come & fetch me from airport.. I wan happy but didn't put much hope.. Cos it's a midnight flight n I'll touch down at 6am.. It's so early.. I thought maybe he wouldn't be able to wake up.. But to my surprise he did wake up n was waiting outside tgt with my mum & sis.. I immidately smile at home & kissed.. My grandparents were also there tgt with my aunt.. I was so happy I came bak & all gathering tgt as a family.. Of course including bf.. Feel super diff after e trip.. Grandma had a 180 degree change in attitude toward him.. He was okay with him n didn't give me a unhappy face.. I was please.. E next day was my baby sis bday n I ask mum could he come along & she agreed.. I was surprised! & happy! Hahah! So I ask him to come along & he came.. On that day onwards everybody knew I had a bf.. I can openly date.. After that week.. He came a few times over my place to have dinner with me & accompany me.. Grandma didn't make a single unhappiness.. This was like a dream to me.. I never thought this would come so soon & sudden! But overall I was relieve that everybody accept e facts.. As soon as all this happens it was my grandma's bday.. I asked mum of bf could come along but mum is afraid that grandma wouldn't like it.. & it was on our 6th monthsary.. I had morning class n ended early.. So I waited for him at amk & have lunch tgt.. After that he when home with me.. To my surprise grandma ask him to come along for dinner celebration. I was shock! But smiled after that.. Mum was shock also after I told her.. Hehehe! Grandma also invited him for cny lunch gathering with my entire family. That was e largest shock of my life! Grandmas love was over flowing in me.. Makes me wan to burst into tears.. Cny 2nd day I ask grandma if he could come & stay over as he has something's to do early morning. Surprisingly grandma agree without much saying from me to her.. Huge step out!! Anw e next day when mum came he wanted to bai nian with mum but didn't know what to say n approach her.. Coincidently she when to toilet just outside my room so I called her in n he shyly bai nian with her.. Super funny scene.. Mum also burst into laugher.. Hahhaa! He wanted to bai nian with grandma too but didn't have e chance.. But grandma gave him a red pack.. From that day onwards I know how it feels when everybody approve your another half & have all gatherings fun! 😄thanks grandma for everything.. Love~

Christmas~

Had an awesome Christmas party!!!! Thou I wasn't happy at 1st when celebrating at aunt hse but after that I was super happy max!! When clubbing with grand aunt, aunt, her bf & yuhru.. I was actually disappointed cos Dennis didn't celebrate tgt.. He was sick plus he didn't like Christmas.. But I have to understand.. Anw I still enjoyed myself cos I was fucking high!! Dancing like crazy~ awesome night!!!!!! Lucky I didn't drunk.. Else my grand aunt will be in shock!! Hahahaha!! Party until wedge spoil & I have to use my rubber band to tie 1st.. But I took off & dance bare foot when I'm at groove.. Haha!! Ppl was looking at me but I fuck care man.. As long as I enjoyed myself everything's okay!!!!!!!! :D
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!!!!!!!!

Loved

Super happy 19th birthday I had.. I will remember this day of my life.. Had so much fun!! Fucking high n drunk.. Thanks bee for looking after me.. Thanks baby & Meimei clean up my mess.. Thanks everybody who clean up my mess too.. Thanks everybody for coming to my celebration.. Plus sorry people who I did funny thing when I was drunk.. So SORRY!!!!
After that night all e things that happen I understand what happen n I'm clear of e things that I was thinking/worrying & what was on his mind.. Thanks Andorria helped me in it.. I thought we would just end like that.. But after that night I'm more confirm that I don't wanna leave him at all.. It was all me that I was thinking too much.. I suddenly lost secure from him.. & doubt e trust.. Now.. It's all over!! I'm clear of everything now.. :D super clear of my heart.. Bee I love you!! I love you DLWJ!!!! <3
Once again I'm sorry that night I was drunk n hugged other guys.. Sorry I make u keep so many things inside all to urself.. Make u suffer so much.. I've stop contacting guys so much already.. Unless they talk to me I reply a few den nv talk already.. Cos I have you it's enough already.. I don't need other guys.. I know where I belong.. <3 :D
I'm so SORRY!!!! For everything.. I shouldn't have think so much.. I love you always..

Love baby<3

Happy

I smiled!! I thought I wouldn't have this feels bak again.. Just as I knew I was thinking too much.. Just as I saw u I was smiling.. No pain.. No bleed.. Not broken.. My heart was fixing bak on its own.. Guess ur e cure to all my problems.. I really love today.. This moments tgt.. Miss all this feelings.. Love all this feelings.. :D thanks bee for all this happy moments.. I'm going to miss u MAX!! Wish everything could stop here.. Wish everyday could be like that.. Wish every moment could stay like this..
Wish every part every single day of my life there will be u taking part, joining me forever.. Think I'm gonna marry u.. 1st time having this feeling of wanting to really settling down for life..
Once again I think I'm naive..
If this is a wonderland it would be e most dramatic story I ever come across..

Understand

Ive made up my mind.. I will leave.. As long as ur happy I will.. Guess ur able to move on faster den me.. Guess I'm not good enough for u.. I will keep everything a secret.. U wouldn't know all this.. Just take it as im a bad gf.. Just another girl that doesn't makes u happy.. Having me doesn't make ur life any better.. Thanks for this 4 mths.. I'm really very happy.. Never in my life I have put so much effort in it.. Ur real special in my life. I'm willing to do so much thing for u.. Thinking bak, I wouldn't have done it if I wouldn't have love u so deep.. I guess I can't take e hot & cold.. My trust was there.. My heart was there.. Now I'm broken.. Just gonna pretend I'm fine.. I will be fine.. Maybe it's just me thinking too much.. Sorry!

I love you DLWJ<3
Always will..
Love baby..

Teary

It's been 4 mth seen we were tgt.. So many things happen within this 4mth.. I don't understand why we r like that now?! Why?? Why make me fall so deep n u ignore me now? Treating me hot n cold! What is this?? Seriously?! Why!!! We were fine n happy for w past 2 mth.. Den something happen n u disappear!! I was so up sad that period of time.. But I know u didn't just disappear for no reason.. I know something must have happen that ur like that.. N I guess correctly.. Something really did happen.. I helped u solve it.. Den everything was fine.. Den why now this?! Just becos I was close to keyon n he called me dear? Den ur like piss?! I didn't even get mad when ur close with other girl!! He's drunk that's y he anyhow talk.. I didn't contact him now.. Can all this get over with? R u not going to talk to me anymore? Why bee?? Why?? Why this time?? Why now?? Why did I fell so deep?? U don't trust me? Or u change? U didn't love me?! I'm totally broken now.. I don't know what to do.. I don't wanna loose u.. R u better off without me? Why I'm so serious in this r/s now n ur like that?? I did so much I've nv done before.. U made me feel ur so special in my life n now ur gone.. Why!!!!!!!! I'm tired of crying my self to sleep.. Can u tell me why? U don't love me already? Or am I just so stupid that i though u would like me this kind of person? WHY BEE!!!!!! I miss u so much.. I don't know how to stop thinking of u.. I've loose u once.. I hate that feeling.. I don't wan a second time.. Is it that much for me to ask for? I'm always so scared to loose u.. R u afraid to loose me? Do u even give a fuck about me? Were u jealous or wat?! What r u thinking now?? Have u ever missed me?? Did I ever come across ur mind ?? Becos u always come across my mind.. I dont know how I'm gonna live life without u when u were so impt n mean so much to me.. I'm super pain.. Baby can u tell me ..

Watched soccer!!