Teary

It's been 4 mth seen we were tgt.. So many things happen within this 4mth.. I don't understand why we r like that now?! Why?? Why make me fall so deep n u ignore me now? Treating me hot n cold! What is this?? Seriously?! Why!!! We were fine n happy for w past 2 mth.. Den something happen n u disappear!! I was so up sad that period of time.. But I know u didn't just disappear for no reason.. I know something must have happen that ur like that.. N I guess correctly.. Something really did happen.. I helped u solve it.. Den everything was fine.. Den why now this?! Just becos I was close to keyon n he called me dear? Den ur like piss?! I didn't even get mad when ur close with other girl!! He's drunk that's y he anyhow talk.. I didn't contact him now.. Can all this get over with? R u not going to talk to me anymore? Why bee?? Why?? Why this time?? Why now?? Why did I fell so deep?? U don't trust me? Or u change? U didn't love me?! I'm totally broken now.. I don't know what to do.. I don't wanna loose u.. R u better off without me? Why I'm so serious in this r/s now n ur like that?? I did so much I've nv done before.. U made me feel ur so special in my life n now ur gone.. Why!!!!!!!! I'm tired of crying my self to sleep.. Can u tell me why? U don't love me already? Or am I just so stupid that i though u would like me this kind of person? WHY BEE!!!!!! I miss u so much.. I don't know how to stop thinking of u.. I've loose u once.. I hate that feeling.. I don't wan a second time.. Is it that much for me to ask for? I'm always so scared to loose u.. R u afraid to loose me? Do u even give a fuck about me? Were u jealous or wat?! What r u thinking now?? Have u ever missed me?? Did I ever come across ur mind ?? Becos u always come across my mind.. I dont know how I'm gonna live life without u when u were so impt n mean so much to me.. I'm super pain.. Baby can u tell me ..