Happy

I smiled!! I thought I wouldn't have this feels bak again.. Just as I knew I was thinking too much.. Just as I saw u I was smiling.. No pain.. No bleed.. Not broken.. My heart was fixing bak on its own.. Guess ur e cure to all my problems.. I really love today.. This moments tgt.. Miss all this feelings.. Love all this feelings.. :D thanks bee for all this happy moments.. I'm going to miss u MAX!! Wish everything could stop here.. Wish everyday could be like that.. Wish every moment could stay like this..
Wish every part every single day of my life there will be u taking part, joining me forever.. Think I'm gonna marry u.. 1st time having this feeling of wanting to really settling down for life..
Once again I think I'm naive..
If this is a wonderland it would be e most dramatic story I ever come across..

Understand

Ive made up my mind.. I will leave.. As long as ur happy I will.. Guess ur able to move on faster den me.. Guess I'm not good enough for u.. I will keep everything a secret.. U wouldn't know all this.. Just take it as im a bad gf.. Just another girl that doesn't makes u happy.. Having me doesn't make ur life any better.. Thanks for this 4 mths.. I'm really very happy.. Never in my life I have put so much effort in it.. Ur real special in my life. I'm willing to do so much thing for u.. Thinking bak, I wouldn't have done it if I wouldn't have love u so deep.. I guess I can't take e hot & cold.. My trust was there.. My heart was there.. Now I'm broken.. Just gonna pretend I'm fine.. I will be fine.. Maybe it's just me thinking too much.. Sorry!

I love you DLWJ<3
Always will..
Love baby..

Teary

It's been 4 mth seen we were tgt.. So many things happen within this 4mth.. I don't understand why we r like that now?! Why?? Why make me fall so deep n u ignore me now? Treating me hot n cold! What is this?? Seriously?! Why!!! We were fine n happy for w past 2 mth.. Den something happen n u disappear!! I was so up sad that period of time.. But I know u didn't just disappear for no reason.. I know something must have happen that ur like that.. N I guess correctly.. Something really did happen.. I helped u solve it.. Den everything was fine.. Den why now this?! Just becos I was close to keyon n he called me dear? Den ur like piss?! I didn't even get mad when ur close with other girl!! He's drunk that's y he anyhow talk.. I didn't contact him now.. Can all this get over with? R u not going to talk to me anymore? Why bee?? Why?? Why this time?? Why now?? Why did I fell so deep?? U don't trust me? Or u change? U didn't love me?! I'm totally broken now.. I don't know what to do.. I don't wanna loose u.. R u better off without me? Why I'm so serious in this r/s now n ur like that?? I did so much I've nv done before.. U made me feel ur so special in my life n now ur gone.. Why!!!!!!!! I'm tired of crying my self to sleep.. Can u tell me why? U don't love me already? Or am I just so stupid that i though u would like me this kind of person? WHY BEE!!!!!! I miss u so much.. I don't know how to stop thinking of u.. I've loose u once.. I hate that feeling.. I don't wan a second time.. Is it that much for me to ask for? I'm always so scared to loose u.. R u afraid to loose me? Do u even give a fuck about me? Were u jealous or wat?! What r u thinking now?? Have u ever missed me?? Did I ever come across ur mind ?? Becos u always come across my mind.. I dont know how I'm gonna live life without u when u were so impt n mean so much to me.. I'm super pain.. Baby can u tell me ..

Watched soccer!!

我上辈子做了设么？
Why is my life so happening??
Why is everything going wrong??
Why everything must happen on me??
Why can't I just have a normal life without things happening??
Why everything must fall when I just started to wan to have a proper life?
Why must things happen when I'm feeling bliss??
Why sadness must come after happiness??
So many why who can ans this question for me? Thou I know some ans to it..
Another sleepless night.. :(
My heart sinks when ever I hear u say facts. It sinks even deeper when e truth comes out from ur mouth..

<3 SUPERDUPERDUMBPIGGY

<3 POOHPOOH!!

<3 DALEDALE!!

<3 CHIPCHIP!!

<3 SLEEPING POOH!!

<3 BABY!!

<3 KORKOR!!

<3 SCRUMPSCRUMP!!

<3 BIG KORKOR!!

<3 DUMBDUMB!!

<3 DUMBO!!

<3 PIGLET!!

<3 SAILOR POOH!!

<3 DOREAMON BF!!

ALL THIS SHALL BE E PAST!!!!

it seems like this is e only place where i can write what ever things i wan n all my sorrows n nobody wouldn't have know.

Guess im blogging again.. i don't know why.

when ever i start blogging mean there is things inside me that im hiding from people around me!

i dont know why i just didn't wan to say it out.

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON!

after reading friend post in facebook..

it hits me..

how could i forget someone that i have been loving for a year and after months i fall for someone else..

e ans inside me is that within this year e last few months i have already prepared to get thrown away..

everybody abandon me anyway..

everybody leaves me..

i dont know what i did but yes im having all this shit!!

i seriously don't know what your thinking about..

ever since den we didn't contact neither we have talk to each other..

i guess is e best way for both of us..

累了 照慣例努力清醒著
也照慣例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在夢中 不聽話的 就停止了

聽著 呼吸像浪潮拍動著
越美麗越讓我忐忑
我還能珍惜什麼
如果我連自己的脈搏 都難掌握

如果我變成回憶 退出了這場生命
留下你錯愕哭泣
我冰冷身體 擁抱不了你
想到我讓深愛的你人海孤獨旅行
我會恨自己 如此狠心

如果我變成回憶 終於沒那麼幸運
沒機會白著頭髮
蹣跚牽著你 看晚霞落盡
漫長時光總有一天你會傷心痊癒
若有人可以 讓他陪你 我不怪你

快樂 什麼時候會結束呢
哪一刻是最後一刻
想把你緊緊抱著
可知你是我生命中的 最捨不得

如果我變成回憶 退出了這場生命
留下你錯愕哭泣
我冰冷身體 擁抱不了你
想到我讓深愛的你人海孤獨旅行
我會恨自己 如此狠心

如果我變成回憶 終於沒那麼幸運
沒機會白著頭髮
蹣跚牽著你 看晚霞落盡
漫長時光總有一天你會傷心痊癒
若有人可以 讓他陪你

如果我變成回憶 最怕我太不爭氣
頑固的賴在空氣 霸佔你心裡 每一寸縫隙
原來依然愛我的你痛苦 承受失去
這樣不公平 請你盡力 把我忘記

連你都會殘忍隔絕
我的心能要誰了解
眼中燭光搖晃著熄滅
為何把我推向邊緣
被砸壞了的一切
卡住了我讓我無法往前

囚禁在距離笑聲最遠的房間
單獨隔離 寂寞地盤旋

全世界都停了電 全世界都封了街
我所有窗子外面 被貼上黑夜
我吶喊思念 卻沒人聽見
絕望到極點剩的是疲倦
全世界都停了電 全世界白雪滿天
才發覺在我心間 有回憶碎片
一作夢翻身 就刺痛流血
我卷著身體縮成一個圈 像一個句點

連你都會殘忍隔絕
我的心能要誰了解
眼中燭光搖晃著熄滅
為何把我推向邊緣
被砸壞了的一切
卡住了我讓我無法往前

囚禁在距離笑聲最遠的房間
單獨隔離 寂寞地盤旋

全世界都停了電 全世界都封了街
我所有窗子外面 被貼上黑夜
我吶喊思念 卻沒人聽見
絕望到極點剩的是疲倦
全世界都停了電 全世界白雪滿天
才發覺在我心間 有回憶碎片
一作夢翻身 就刺痛流血
我卷著身體縮成一個圈 像一個句點