Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Love recognizes no barriers. It jumps over hurdles, leaps fences, penetrates walls to arrive at its destination full of hope.

Love is like drinking beer... Once you get too much of it, you begin to act stupid.

It's hard when u don't know what caused your sadness, but it's even harder when you know what makes u happy yet you can't do anything to have it

Love not because of who the person is, but because of who you are when you're with her/him.

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes, it is better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.

It's not wrong to give it all for love; it's not wrong to love a person so much. Sometimes, the only thing wrong is the person you chose to love..

Sometimes I wish I were a little kid again. Skinned knees are easier to heal than broken hearts...

LOVE is IN SPITE of , not BECAUSE of.

somehow i find all this to be quite true..
and all this this thing is like happening on me to often..
which i dont thing is a good thing..
i hate all this thing to happen..
y is loving someone so difficult..??
y can loving someone be much more easier..??
loving pet somehow is much better..
this few days i didnt think of him le izzit a good thing or not??
mayb is a good thing.. but wats make me not thinking so much??
found feelings on another person??
dont really wan to noe the reason..
maybe it will just hurt me more again..
somehow i just keep hurting myself more n more each time i think of him..
or something happen.. and somehow it will just link to him..

may i noe where is he??
how is he??
wat is he doing now??
wat is he thinking about..??

WHERE THE HELL ON EARTH IS HE AT??
I JUST WAN TO SEE HIM 1 MORE TIME.. TO FIND OUT THE TRUTH..
I HAVE TOO MANY THINGS THAT I WAN TO ASK HIM..
EVER SINCE HE LEFT.. REALLY REALLY TOO MANY THINGS TO ASK..
V where are u??
y dont u contact me..??
y did u ignore me..??
V can i just see u once more..??
and i really can let go le..
i promise.. i wouldnt hold back le..
i promise... i promise.. i promise...

Friday, December 11, 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me!!

today super happy..
i got so many surprise..
1st was yx they all cos i when www in the morning wif them..
they brought me a winnie the pooh pan dan.
so cute lo.. i didnt think that they will but this for me..
2nd is andorria they all..
they buy me the earring that i wanted to buy..
and is BLUE!!! i really like the earring..
i also didnt think that tis year they will give me tis..

tis year bday i really didnt realise i will have this birthday present frm them..
thank you!! everybody who celebrate my birthday wif me and wish me..

only 1 person didnt wish me.. and i think tat person will ever wish me..

anw i going to have my new phone soon..
baby change le lo.. she change her fav color i also change mine fav..
hahahahahaha...

so fan.. too many thinks going on in my live now..
i dont wan all this thing...
i just wan to go back to the start when i was unchange.. unhurt..
not like now.. too many hurt tat i have numb alrdy..
no more tears.. just sorrow.. too numb to feel anything..
wat should i do..?? baby ask me dont think le..
let time be the healing... but i think this wound is too deep to heal up properly..
i hate the healing up.. it hurts more den when it was just cut..
but now both cutting and healing feel are both hurting..
SO FAN!!! y am i like tat.. i keep tell my mummy.. y u give birth to me into this world..
i told many ppl... how i wish i wasnt in this world..
i have regreted too many things..
too many thing to sad over.. too many thing cannot start over le..
everything has become nth.. there is nth left..
its like a volcano just bao fa.. burns everything.. left the ashes..
my heart onli left wif broken pieces that cannot be fix back without leaving scars..


Friday, December 4, 2009

Finally exams are over..
Yipee.. yahoo..

didnt blog tis few days again cos studying for exam..
so many things happen last few days..
suddenly so many things to fan..
suddenly miss him so badly..
suddenly i was told/realise things tat shouldnt be happening..
isnt normal ok..??
whats wrong wif me..??
why this things always happen to me??
i noe is gd but...
it wouldnt work out..
i noe myself..

trying my very best not to sheared a tears becos of him..
but i always end up crying the whole night..
why can a guy tat i nv comtact for so long affect me so much that i've change into another person..
even before my friends tell me that i change i already knew it..
i've change into a very scary person.. is a total of 360º change..
i have been told many time not to let him bother me anymore.. but everytime is getting worst..
the wound is getting bigger & deeper each time..
y doesnt it heal up.. y does it always split up.. is hurting too much..
too much tat everytime i cant take it anymore..
everytime i feel like killing myself..