Sorrow/hurt

It really hurts me a lot..
Why??? Why do u have to cheat n pretend nothing has happen?? Why do u still have to lie to me?? I know everything.. Do u know how much it hurts to see u lie when I know e truth to every single lie u made?? Each lie u said cuts right through my heart. Why this matter?? Why me?? Why her? I don't get it!! Why all this shit? I gave u e chance into this relationship. U said I should give u a chance n that u wouldn't be e same.. But once again. U become someone u said u will never be again. Den why now? Why when I accepted u all but this shit happen? Why change in that sudden second when I thought u have totally changed?! U said u accepted all e shit I've done. But look! Who's e wan accepting all e shit! It was me!! I accepted all ur flaws!! Gave u e chance!! N ur restricting me?! Den why treat me so good?! When u have intended to leave?! Why when my family accepted e fact that I have a boyfriend?! Why when I thought u will never go back e same old you?! Why when I thought u deserve this chance? Everything's back to square 1 again. This will be my limits off everything. No more chance given! I've put in all my heart for this. Sorry if u said I made u sad angry n everything that hurts u. But what I did was half of what u gave me! I keep quiet just so I know what u really up to. Which I'll end this stuffs right here!

Heavy rain night. Never thought this night was so hurtful n hard to spend. I will not forget all this while when we were together I'll keep everything as memories. Kept in e deepest part. Not to be found easily. All I can do is this much of love to u. I couldn't bring myself anymore to love you for what u have did now. I'm sorry but I love you. D': I'VE NEVER EVER WANTED TO WND THIS!! Thanks for all this time by my side never left me.

I LOVE YOU DLWJ ALWAYS DID :) <3